HALLIELUJAH: glorify the power to CHOOSE

I haven't been able to stop thinking about one thing all day today:

How much of the pain I experience in my life is self-inflicted?

I scroll through social media and read comments on other people's pictures that say:
Your life is perfect

"relationship goals"

Can I be you?

I am living vicariously through you

The grass always seems greener on the other side.

But I am learning that:

I assume that God has all of his blessings & guidance locked in a cloud in heaven, until I realize that my own fear & doubt put up an umbrella above my own head.

It's scary to let go of toxic relationships, but I have learned that it's worth it when you find people who are so wonderful that it makes you smile just knowing that they have chosen you for a friend.

It's hard to get rid of bad eating habits, but I have learned that it's worth having confidence.

It's hard to get rid of late night netflix binging, but I've definitely learned that it's worth feeling well-rested (and sane).

And prayer? It's just another thing to add to my list of responsibilities; until you realize that you are talking to your Heavenly Father. And then it isn't anymore. It is the root of all happiness. It is everything.

I am a very passionate person, but I allow time to wash way everything.