I have always anticipated college the way a little kid anticipates Christmas.
But because I wanted to love college, the last thing I wanted to do, was to go off to school when I wasn't ready. My uncertainty turned into doubt and I decided to defer a semester.
Until I went to Badger Creek three and a half weeks ago.
Three and a half weeks ago I sat on the dock by the pond - my favorite place in the entire world - and read a letter.
Last summer while at AFY, I wrote myself this letter. I bring it everywhere with me. I LOVE this letter. Sitting on the dock with my two best friends around me, reading my AFY letter should have been the most spiritually uplifting experience in the world. But it wasn't. I couldn't figure out what was going on and so I prayed. "God....here I am. I've been waiting weeks for this. Why can't I feel the spirit?"
And I was overwhelmed.
You need to go to college at BYU-Idaho in the spring.
Originally when graduating high school early, I planned to go to BYU-Idaho in the spring and so I had already been accepted. But at this point I had already completed the application process for my humanitarian trip in the Dominican Republic and I was set to work all spring to save the money and then go in the fall. But I could NOT feel the spirit on that dock until I promised the Lord that I would go to school. I was basically terrified.
If you go to college, you will be happier than you have ever been.
I felt that promise. It's one of the only things that kept me going when I said goodbye to my two best friends and my parents and my dog and when I packed up my room and drove out of Montana.
School started in a month and I had to talk to my parents, quit my job, sign up for classes, buy an apartment contract and shop for everything I would need. It was an emotionally draining three weeks , but I've realized that when you are following God's will, everything plays out like clockwork. Ten minutes after I put in my two weeks notice at work I messaged a friend asking if she needed a job. She did. I bought an apartment contract off someone. All of the classes I wanted still had room. The spirit was guiding my life!
Ten days ago, I packed up everything in a suitcase and moved to Rexburg, Idaho.
Ten days. It's been ten days and I am in love with my life. I woke up yesterday thinking "how many days are left on this amazing road trip?" and then "oh wait...this is my LIFE now". During the school day I walk across campus with a smile on my face wanting to yell I LOVE MY LIFE!! High school wasn't exactly like that (haaha at ALL) and it feels good to feel good.
My life mantra is to "always do things that scare me", but since coming to school I have also adopted the phrase "JUST SAY YES" (unless it's to drugs because duh). I wrote in my journal; I think that 'just saying yes' on this campus is another way to say 'I am being guided by the spirit right now'.
For example....I have been joining all of these activities that I thought I'd never do. AND I LOVE IT. It's so cool to go into a place where you never could picture yourself and to meet all of the people there. I recommend it, actually. Just say yes. :)
Basically? It's been a good ten days. I can't wait to see where this crazy adventure takes me.
Listening to the spirit is a wonderful thing. :-)
xoxo -Hallie Jo
And I was overwhelmed.
You need to go to college at BYU-Idaho in the spring.
Originally when graduating high school early, I planned to go to BYU-Idaho in the spring and so I had already been accepted. But at this point I had already completed the application process for my humanitarian trip in the Dominican Republic and I was set to work all spring to save the money and then go in the fall. But I could NOT feel the spirit on that dock until I promised the Lord that I would go to school. I was basically terrified.
If you go to college, you will be happier than you have ever been.
School started in a month and I had to talk to my parents, quit my job, sign up for classes, buy an apartment contract and shop for everything I would need. It was an emotionally draining three weeks , but I've realized that when you are following God's will, everything plays out like clockwork. Ten minutes after I put in my two weeks notice at work I messaged a friend asking if she needed a job. She did. I bought an apartment contract off someone. All of the classes I wanted still had room. The spirit was guiding my life!
Ten days ago, I packed up everything in a suitcase and moved to Rexburg, Idaho.
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| The hardest goodbye. Look at his face. He knew. |
My life mantra is to "always do things that scare me", but since coming to school I have also adopted the phrase "JUST SAY YES" (unless it's to drugs because duh). I wrote in my journal; I think that 'just saying yes' on this campus is another way to say 'I am being guided by the spirit right now'.
For example....I have been joining all of these activities that I thought I'd never do. AND I LOVE IT. It's so cool to go into a place where you never could picture yourself and to meet all of the people there. I recommend it, actually. Just say yes. :)
Listening to the spirit is a wonderful thing. :-)
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| Home sweet home. |
xoxo -Hallie Jo
I'm glad you are so happy! And you are making your bed! Wow!
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